It would drive me crazy not knowing!!

Its have been so.. long! Yeah.. I almost forget about this blog.. luckily I save the password somewhere.. I don’t knw.. I just not in the mood of viewing my own blog for the past few months.. it might sound crazy when I say that I feel “dizzy” every time I accessed my blog..but this is true! Hahahaa.. this blog will remind me of my early pregnancy temperament..the morning sickness, dizziness, nausea-ness, craving-ness..etc..etc.. I think this might because of i started this blog during that ‘time’ and I talked a lot about it until I feel that this blog is connected with my preg. temperament..iskk..apa ba sa cakap nie.. sa pun nda paham..hmm

anyway.. I’m now enjoying my 3rd trimester, the final trimester.. it feels amazing! besides the KG that I gained la..(worrying about it later) don’t wanna load my mind about it now..! There are too many other important things that needs more concern at this time.. and worth paying attention to..my baby, my health, the money and so...on.. Now we are busy preparing and shopping for our baby’s stuff.. ya, I now some people do not encourage buying things too early for a baby in your tummy (unborn baby)… They said, if something happen to your pregnancy (palis-palis) you will be double-broken heart and bla..bla...but honestly.. I’ve been online shopping for my baby’s stuff since I was about 3 months pregnant..ya really! ;) tp yg basic2 jak la.. for me, I believe buying baby’s stuff is part of a good planning for having a baby.. most baby’s things and products are not cheap! and we will need a LOT of new things for the baby.. so I think buying baby’s things little by little is a wiser plan because it could help us moderate the expenses over the few months of my pregnancy until I give birth.. well, it doesn’t mean that I don’t respect other’s belief/ point of view (buying baby’s stuff too early) that’s what they think. and I have no comment for that.. but as for me, I prefer praying and just put my faith in Him. if God’s will..and it will..:)

As of today..i’m in 29 weeks, 3 days..but we still didn’t find out the sex of our baby! We went for the ultrasound scanning for two times but the doctor cant give us the 100% answer.. he said that the position of the baby didn’t allow us to see his/ her “down there”.. arrghh.!. I cant stand of this surprise any longer.. so we plan to go for another ultrasound this weekend..

My dear baby.. Please allow mommy to see who u are this time around ok.. so its much easier for mommy to prepare your things.;) I know your dad is enjoying this surprise and he love the fun of waiting.. but mommy wants everything is perfect for you..so please listen to mommy ok:)

This torture came especially when it comes to buying the baby outfits.. I found out that MOST of the baby’s stuff are gender specific..the unisex choices are very limited.. ya EVERYTHING! Not only the clothes..but everthing! Even the feeding set..blankets..cloth diaper.. dan semuanya la..

For me, if you knew the gender of your baby.. it can help you to prepare better for the baby.. and of course you can focus on finding a name..

..sharing some thoughts..

A friend forwarded this to me.. it was very thoughtful words..

Be careful of your words
for your words become your actions.

Be careful of your actions
for your actions become your habits.

Be careful of your habits
for your habits become your character.

Be careful of your character
for your character becomes your destiny.

I’m still suffering from my morning sickness but I’m trying to enjoy and be grateful for every single moment of it.. o ya, I had a wonderful breakfast this morning..i love the seafood mee sup and a sip of Tea-O si cie.. tahan hati jak. Arrr!!.jeles btl tgk cie minum tea baa..!

just a tags..

It's Harder Than It Looks! Copy To Your Own Note, Erase My Answers, Enter Yours, And Tag 10 People. Use The First Letter Of Your Name To Answer Each Of The Following Questions. They Have To Be Real...Nothing Made Up! If The Person Before You Had The Same First Initial, You Must Use Different Answers. You Cannot Use Any Word Twice And You Can't Use Your Name For The Boy/ Girl Name Question. HAVE FUN!!!

1. What Is Your Name?
FLORIDA

2. A Four Letter Word:
FIVE

3. A Boy's Name:
FRANCIS

4. A Girl's Name:
FIONA

5. An Occupation:
FISHERMAN

6. A Color:
FOREST GREEN

7. Something You Wear:
FAVORITE LIP GLOSS

8. A Food:
FRENCH FRIES

9. Something Found In The Bathroom:
FACIAL CLEANSER

10. A Place:
FLORIST SHOP.. place juga ba itu..

11. A Reason For Being Late:
FUCKING JAM!

12. Something You Shout:
FIX IT!! FASTER!! hehe

13. A Movie Title:
FANTASTIC FOUR

14. Something You Drink:
FRUIT JUICE

15. A Musical Group:
FABULOUS CAT

16. A Street Name:
FOURTH STREET…macam sia pernah dengar2 ba..

17. A Type Of Car:
FORD

18. A Song Title:
FROSTY THE SNOWMAN ;)

19. A Verb:
FADE AWAY

::this is really fun! thanks for tagging cytna..:)

:: I only tag si sigu Vic:)

I'm Not in the mood for..

I am not in the mood for blogging…I am not in the mood to write either... arr!! just not in the mood For Anything!! But… zzZZZzzzzz…sleeping beauty…ZZZzzzzzz

..just can’t get enough of my bed..! feel tired and sleepy and sleeeepy all the time..

Tag Again..from cynta

1.What have you been doing recently?
- I’ve been busy searching article on the internet (and u don’t wanna knw about it)

2.Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
- yup..whenever I balik kampung

3.What happened at 10am today?
- errmm.. reading preggy related articles on the internet (mom-to-be symptom sdh ni :)

4.When did you last cry?
- 30th Dec 2008.. homesickness.. keboringan sdh d kgau kan..

5.Believe in fate/destiny?
- I do believe in fate faith :)

6.What do you want in your life now?
- debt free!! **credit card grrr!**

7.Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
- yupp..i just love my huge umbrella..

9.What bottoms are you wearing now?
- I’m wearing baju kurung now..so u knw la what bottoms I am wearing kan..

10.What's the nicest things in your inbox?
- malas la mo check..

11.Do you tend to make the relationship complicated?
- I don’t think so!

12.Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
- nope..

13.What was the last movie you caught?
- bedtime story (sma la kita cynta:)..my movie’s buddy been very busy with his thesis nowadays so no time for panggung wayang..**sigh**

14.What are you proud of?
- hmmm..apa ya..?? cant decide.. have many things to be proud of

15.What does the oldest text msg in your inbox say?
- “bila kmu mo balik kampung?” frm my cuzy ogou, sent on 31st Dec 08

16.What was the last song you sang out loud?
- cant remember..hahaha

17.Do you have any nicknames?
- of coz! I have quite a lot.. but I born with the nickname ‘ida’ and its still my preferred nickname..*wink*

18.What does the newest text say?
- “Ok” frm evan

19.What time did you go to bed last night?
- 8:++pm..felt a bit dizzy and nauseous

20.Are you currently happy?
- yess I am.. Thank u Lord for the happiness :)

21.Who gives you the best advice?
- depends on what kind of advice I need

22.Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
- wonder..ermm have I ever eaten that??

23.Who did you talk on the phone with last night?
- no one..

24 .Is something bugging you now?
- yup....

25.Who was the last person to make you laugh?
- someone in da ofis.. hahahaha but she doesn't even mean to make a joke!! (I wish I could write it here..hehe)

***SORRY I CANT CONTINUE THIS GAME..all of my fren has been tagged with this**
XOXO

I am craving for Kampung foods!

I have really no idea when this my food craving season will end.. I always feel like I want to eat and eat something even when I feel full! But I realize something that my craving for salty food is unbelievable.. if I don’t feel the salt on the food, I don’t satisfy!! This is really doesn’t make sense.. i never love salt like this before.. I will love the food when my hubby say it “too much salt!” and I think my dearest friend Cie also aware with this change of my eating-behavior.. I suddenly put kicap on my mi hun..biasanya simpan dlm mangkuk kecik tu jak..dan balik2 lagi tu ambil..hehe You know, I cannot explain the taste to you.. but it really taste GOOD and SATISFYING!! Nyamm..nyamm..nyamm..yummy!!

Hmm.. and what was in my head now?? Eerrrrr.. I’m craving for kampung foods..a CRISPY SALTED FISH yang kena jual sana pasar besar KB..with the BAMBANGAN PICKLE + SAMBAL TUHAU and.. the ulam immature tapioca leaf …and more..more...foods..please..

so..Enjoy the Foods Pictures and imagine the taste..
(look at your own risk)
Hehehe

the flavour enhancer for salted fish

the virgin tuhau

salted fish + chili

Sautéed immature tapioca leaf

(pic: courtesy of kuai)

my all time fav. deep fried ikan basung
(pic: courtesy of Kuai)

crispy satled fish

:: Thank God!! I don’t crave for any strange things foods..

:: to my Adrian: thanks for your patience and willingness to fulfilling my unending hunger


P/S:: i dont dare to find and put the picture of bambangan pickle here coz i don't think that i could resist the temptation..
hmm..i think the best thing to do this weekend is to balik kampung and ask my mom to cook those foods..:)
..tapun-tapun..

Cynta tagged me!

Rules :
- Pick your birth month.
- Strike out anything that doesn’t apply to you .
- Bold (or italicize) the best apply to you .
- Copy to your own blog , with all twelve months .
- Tag 10 people

orange = so not me.
green = herrmmm...
blue = sometimes

I am AUGUST child
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

I’m gaining weight! but I am Happy

Look at the above picture..^ (nay, ko kanal ka apakah benda tu?? Ekekek) I got two stripes!! it would definitely answered the kilos that I gained recently.. I’m PREGNANCY TEST POSITIVE and I know, from now on i'm getting bigger and bigger.. hahahahaha.. and this also definitely means that I have to change my wardrobe very soon as some of my clothes got tight and don’t fit me anymore..sob..sob..sob.. I’m just six weeks pregnant, and I’m already having trouble with my clothes.. arrr..!! Now I started to worry on what I’m going to wear tomorrow and tomorrow..and tomorrow…???oh no! I really feel silly wearing the maternity clothes this early..but its even stupid to wear my regular clothes and unzip it..kan! (my stupid idea)..hmm..i just pray that I will still have a clothes especially the baju kurungs to ware to work until I finish to shop my maternity collections..;)

::I’ll be 5 months pregnant at my brother’s wedding and I will really big at that time..hehe..anyway, don’t worry big bro I’ll still join your theme color;)

Things that I'm grateful for..

It’s a common for everyone to make their new year’s resolutions at the very beginning of each year.. but this phenomenon sometimes gets me annoyed when everybody seem to be so concern(busy) and start asking about my own new year’s resolutions. . As for me, one new year’s resolutions is mean to be personal and not for anyone’s concern...bukan utk tontonan umum :) ..to be honest, I sometimes don’t even set any resolutions.. ’cos I prefer and enjoying dreaming and fantasizing..hehe and so do this year, instead of pressuring myself thinking and setting the 2009’s resolutions I better try thinking of some pleasurable thoughts. .Things that I’m grateful for.. (Especially dedicated to the year of 2008)

**number doesn’t represent priority (it randomly listed)

1. My family
2. My brothers
3. My sister
4. My sister in law
5. My husband
6. My savior
7. Friends
8. Nice people
9. Good food
10. Our house
11. My job
12. Movies
13. Our wedding presents
14. Our wedding ang pau
15. The spirit of christmas
16. The gospel
17. Wonderful praise & worship
18. My electric thermo pot
19. My purple nightdress
20. Love
21. Laughter
22. Hope
23. Hugs
24. Peace
25. Health
26. Money
27. Salary
28. Music
29. My wedding
30. Arabella nathania lorence turns 1 year old
31. Still good friend of nancy anthony
32. Sales and promotions
33. My wedding photographer
34. My white shoes
35. Our wedding albums
36. My bed
37. Eyelashes extensions
38. Necklace
39. Silver earing
40. Celcom broadband
41. Forgiveness, forgive and forgiven
42. My traditional costume
43. Our toaster
44. Our dogs
45. Thoughtful advice
46. Mom’s prayers
47. Answered prayers
48. Rain
49. Sunny sky
50. Water
51. Experienced in arranging my own wedding
52. Panadol extend
53. Donggongon permai polyclinic
54. Ridge saloon
55. Photoshop thingy
56. Yes i do studio
57. My diamond wedding ring
58. Kb’s mee hoon soup
59. Keningau’s ngau chap
60. Happiness
61. Joy
62. Blessing
63. Kisses
64. Dad’s talking can
65. Dad’s thoughtful words
66. Virgin coconut’s oil
67. Ostrich oil
68. Fruits
69. Flowers
70. Mr. Sikah the tailor
71. My hair treatment
72. Uncle kinsom, the peacemaker
73. Mr & mrs johanny, the videographer
74. Cuzzy juni, the wiring man
75. Mr & mrs ronald, the ninja car:)
76. Mr & mrs win, the host family
77. Aunty sauni, the most congenial lady
78. Mrs soyod, the generous woman on earth
79. Aunty kondoyom, the entertainer
80. Mr & mrs derinsim, a warm welcome to their house
81. Cuzzy ogou, for lovely hugs
82. Uncle sainte, the faithful
83. Dad’s artificial pool
84. My lavender bed room
85. My touch-responsive nightlight
86. and the Memories…

arrr…penat pulak.. I’ll be right back soon.. so stay tuned!! :)

:: i try to make it 111 list.. so that, i can titled this as "111 THINGS I'M GRATEFUL FOR" hehehe..

oh..i start breathing..!

Now I’m here again, Thinking..!

thinking on how to breathe and be alive again after been ‘dead’ about a couple of months.. my blog is sooo dead for soo long..!! and now i feel that I’m a real newbie and nerd! Nevertheless, my gorgeous BFF cie still kept this link at her blog faithfully.. thanks amiga..:)

Well, I will start breathing with this title “The Chronicle of Our Wedding” (yet to be posted)

the title that narrating the events and the journey that led to our wedding on last November 22^nd, 2008. I’m writing this to share to others and, for me and for my dear husband to always remember the moments and emotions throughout those times because I do believe that it’s worth to be remembered

hmmm...I think pictures speaks better than my words.. so the entry will be posted with a numerous of pics..

::jz hope that this entry would answer my silent mode for all this while.. i become completely mentally and physically exhausted and flatted at the end of each day for about 5 months back.. but its worth it.. but NOT for the sake of this my dearie blog..:)