Just a state of mind..

Happy 2012!! Ok..helloo 2012! Thank you Lord for the breath of my life today.. thank  you for given me the chances to live.. thank you for the wonderful gifts, thank you for the blessings and thank you for the lessons that you’ve given and pour into my life .. thank you for everything my dear Lord! Thank you for the year 2012..

 Good bye 2011..

I will never see u again but the memories and the moment that we’ve created in you have engraved in your name ‘2011’ forever and it will never be changed..  March 20^th, 2011 was one of the most precious moment happened in the name of year 2011..we welcomed our new bundle of joy into our family.. the princess of our heart  Areanna Carla Adrian.. 

I always used to think and say that how I wished i lost my memory so that I will not remember all the bitters and painful things that ever happened in my life.. but when I look back over my life in 2011, I am amazed!! I don’t have the feeling of ingin menghilangkan ingatan as I used to.. it doesn’t mean that I have a hilariously luxury life dan hidup tanpa duka-lara throughout the year oo jauh sekali..but i think it’s the matter of the way I think and the way I look on something is change..ada kah aku sdh menjadi semakin matang? ;)when I recalled all the sad and painful things that happened I feel grateful because i think I now understand why it happen..like people said.. everything happen for a reason..  “to shift a path in a direction that meant for you”  I’ll never know how stronger I am if that was never happen.. I remembered.. my father used to say when I was crying, komplen2, marah2  why this happen? Why that happen? Its not supposed to be like this.its not supposed to be like that…!. I hate it!!.. Ihate that! I hate this happen!!! long time ago..and he said that.. semuaa tu cuma asam garam kehidupan..the hurts, sadness..that’s all called living! .. to be hurt, get upset and fall! That’s the process of shaping you to become a better person and preparing you to a moment that is yet to come..your future..  and this is the version after I get married everytime I complained..’itu cuma bunga2 dlm rumahtangga ja tu..” I even hate that kata2 now because its so TRUE and its ABSOLUTELY true! after living about 31 years baru sa faham kata2 itu.. 

so smilee:) ! Let everyone knw that today u are a lot lot stronger and wiser than u are yesterday.. let this 2012 lead us to a better person, place, state of mind and bring us a much2 more precious year than previous..

               

Happy New year!!!